The Resistance

How do you cope with a worsening of your symptoms?

Do you know that iconic image of the man in front of that tank in Beijing?
I always think that is me.
I resist.
I refuse to accept.
I say: “You shall not pass.” (The monster pulled the wizard into the abyss after he said that, so it might not be easiest tactic 🙂

Let’s say you have issues from an old knee injury and dancing makes it worse and yet…you sometimes dance…
Let’s say you have a jaw joint disfunction and chewing on nuts aggravates your condition….yet sometimes you eat nuts…
Let’s say you have fibromyalgia and doing heavier physical work sends you in a flare…yet you sometimes do this…

These “let’s say-scenario’s” are me.
It’s life.
Sometimes you have no option at a certain moment.
Sometimes you want to enjoy yourself, pretend you are fine, forget you have to be careful all of the time.

I resist.
Resistance can be either fertile or futile but it’s the latter in this case.
How do you win this mental war/battle? (it’s as much mental as it is physical)
Especially if your coping-mechanism is resistance.
The war of: “why, oh why did I do “x” to make it worse?”
It is so draining and exhausting.

“Resisting the circumstances of your life, is like saying to a river:
-you should not be flowing here, you should be flowing over there-” Gary Zukav

Perhaps you have other ways of coping that are less tense.
If you recognise yourself, however, I think we need to focus more on our breathing and allowing.

Just to breathe and think, for one moment even:
What happens if I let it go?
What happens if I forgive myself?
What happens if I just observe the pain?

Let’s make it easier for ourselves.
May your days feel light ❤️